<TITLE>10. Par 41-44</TITLE>L-41 And so, Brother Baxter, the same way. And both of them went out and rented a big place. All right. That shows, you see? And went on down along the trip, like that, trouble set in everywhere. And never had the meeting until we got up there to... Anyone knows, that knows. Brother Jackson, you know. The meeting was at Durban, where we had nearly a hundred thousand got out, and thirty thousand converts in a day. And that was the only place was that.
Down along the road, we all got sick. Every one of us got sick.
And when I come home, I almost died. I had ameba. Ameba, it's a parasite, a little animal, gets into the intestinal tract, in the stomach, like little barnacles; sticks there and sucks till it... Well, it takes its course in about so many hours. After it gets into the blood stream, if it comes on the liver, and bursts, you live. It goes to brain and bursts, the heart, you die. There's nothing they can do about it. And I walked the floor, and prayed and cried, and prayed and cried, and prayed and cried, till my eyes were swelled nearly... My wife had to lead me to breakfast. No answer from God at all.
One morning, I laying there, my hand behind my head, saying, "God, what shall I do?" Falling off weight, getting thinner, and thinner, worse and worse all the time. Was nothing... Getting worse. Weren't nothing could be done: worse all the time.

L-42 And one morning, I was laying there, I thought, "O God, what does my future hold? I guess I'll... This is the end of the road. I'm perishing. I'm sorry." I repented. I said, "God, I'll never, no more, knowingly step across Your line, never again. If there's kindness in Your heart, Lord, for me, please forgive me." I'd get my Bible and walk up and down the floor in the daytime.
And my wife would say, "Honey, what's the matter?"
I'd say, "Oh, sweetheart, if you only knew how I felt." I said, "I've went against God's will." I--I said, "Here I am broken, nearly. And my ministry... I told Brother Baxter. I said, 'The Lord has spoke to me..." Well, he's witnessed right now, if I had him come to the platform.
I said, "If I take that itinerary, THUS SAITH THE LORD, I'll not even be able to have a meeting between six months and a year."
It was. This was the seventh month, or the eighth month. See? I asked Him. When He says anything, it's the truth. I'll lay my life to it that it's the truth.

L-43 Then, coming back to my place. I was walking the floor, about three months ago, or hardly seem like. Walking the floor one night, crying... I laid down went to sleep. I woke up about three o'clock in the morning. I said, "O God, what will be my future? What will happen to me?" Laying there, I said, "Oh, if I only..." About five months, now that I was pacing the floor and crying, wondering.
People praying everywhere... Well, I couldn't even leave the house hardly. And there I was.
I said, "Oh, oh, what will I do?"
Then I got a little buddy by the name of Dr. Adair, lives just across from me. Went to school together. When he heard about that, he said, "Billy Branham, mercy, boy. God must be merciful to you." So he said, "There ain't nothing I know to do."
I said, "Doc, the only thing I know to do is find my favor back with God again." I said, "I've stepped across His line."

L-44 One morning, laying yonder, as I said, about three o'clock, I was...?... I said, "What does my future hold?" And about that time, I felt Something move into the room. Get your memories ready now. I'm going to tell you something that's going to happen. He come into the room, and I knew it was Him. I laid real still, felt moving around here; It come, going "whew-whew-whew." Like a laps of fire, like that, moved down into the room, come where I was.
Just then, I seen One come walking to me. He had paper, something like typewriter paper. It was folded like this in His hand. He walked up to me. Said, "As you were meditating upon your bed, what would be your future?"
I said, "Yes, Lord. I have wondered what my future held."


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